getting in betwixt me

and my calvins

watching the sprinklers spray the sculpture

in the sculpture garden 

excited us

like the the graceful erection of a construction crane

like the relief

from releasing the kink in the green garden hose

like the gentle hum 

and the warm inky smell of a photocopier 

like the calm in my diaphragm on a turbulent flight 

blood sloshing around my stomach in the clouds

your blood dripping down upon petalled paper

so as I unglue myself from this floor

I'll remember you radiant 

grinding on my chin 

the sand exploding from your pubic hairs

my summer beard shining in the mud 

our hearts beating slow under the weight 

i tired of trying 

to untie the entire entirety

entirely

tirelessly

but these bitches are trying me

and I am tangley

hard candidly

heavy handedly

over handled

yankee candled

and i couldnt grasp

and i couldnt clasp

your selective memory lapse

cuz like the kitten feasting on the crow

the stress rash 

and the hormonal glow

these hands are small i know

but theyre notch urs

dey are my own

all ive ever never wanted was dis

a salty tongue pon peppered lips

your woobie nyny pinched with vice grips

speaker moaning a forced lisp

a poland spring bottle half filled with piss

thick bodied thin skinned

bare ankled raw shinned

franzia funneled

swaddled n pummeled

pups lapping at the puddles

soft shelled chef coated

a head of chestnut, dimpled and doted

you, belly down, boxed wined n dined

a gentle nibble pon d salty rind

cocker spanieled

socked and sandeled

a place for every feathery crystally granule

oh my baby, 

my babeliest boy,

 that shaggy headed 
angel. shrouded in joy,

just got the two sweetest of daughters

he cools their milks
 he warms their waters

and im too scared to meet them

if my cough startles them while they're sleeping

if my finger is incorrect and their vertabrae weaken

my most devoted 
of down ass girls,

the one with the blonde banana curls

moved so far away 
so she could have porch

and a fucking front yard 
 a tree to perch

and im too scared to pick up the phone

 i'll blame it on the kidney stone
a brunch date a bogus loan

im trying to keep dry, weather permitting

a forecast of torrential spitting
hiding at my sister's condo dog sitting

upon my pillow of mold

mild withdrall or chronic head cold

trails of popcorn
tears of fools gold
 

killer,

 killer you're killing me

a gentle funneling

wallowing willingly

but really only if you're down

my paw creeping up your gown

hairless and round

nestled in my nostril

a dried fetal fossil

clogging up the nozzle

faux leathered and laced

the baby suckling the paste

flecks of pollen, buds of taste

swallowing my instincts

macaroni n fishsticks

cocaine n chick flix

an itching, a hair lip

or is it a cleft?

second finger on the left

a tanned swollen hand

wuz that thin band

golden n grand 

lost in the sand

still i searched all over the grocer

every aisle, goya to kosher

until i completely shattered my composure

i luv my dead ghey life

the chief of grief

sultan of strife

pope of mope

wet willyed, earloped

quilted in guilt

to wallow or let wilt

blowing everything we've built

i tainted my nape

scattered ashes on the cape

baby blankets drooled n draped

smoked and cured

baited and lured

i'll never be assured

that our future will be realized

slumped, still, trying to metabolize

just gunna move into the movie theatre

gummy seats, a bottom feeder

with baby girl tied up on the parking meter

excuse me but your poinsettias are pouting

ferns are flopping, chia's stopped sprouting

a wilderness boy goes girl scouting

a wet tongue, a dampened stamp

svedka slugs and lava lamps

was that i love it or i love you

ill just act like i dont owe you

pin it on seed you sow you

a slanted, crooked bedframe 

a branding, a pen name

a sunken mattress

third eye sunglasses

a tisket
 a tasket

stickers on my open casket

a plaything 
a chew toy

kahlo to tolstoy
fresh thoughts 
just try n enjoy

my favorite color identity questioned

a raw raw rainbow affectionately mentioned

red for the mistress

green for the main bitch

that baby pink shit was just a guise
decided to get bris-ed instead of baptized 

overcompensating the importance of size

but i know it deep in my bones

ima live this life all alone

it will always be a royal blue

jadore j'taime adieu adieu 

nothing will ever be this true this true this true 

cumming down the stairs on dat

Quil Gin Xany stew
teething tonguing but just cant chew

swampy swampy swamp

swamp swamp swamp,

looking for a ham to hock 

a pork to chop

a cutlet to gawk.

I've always wanted to live right above you

perched, hovered above a swampy view

with a cold chick to lay

cranky and played

swaddled still, blankets frayed.

the gods had awarded us our celestial prize

and we'd drink in those meaty skies

brawnier and more unctuous 

thicker and more rambunctious

than those lighthearted Californian clouds

florescent grey with canary shrouds

cascading upon our swampy's crowds

 that goosey gaggle a froggy family

a lone bitch swan, murking surly

the heron stalking us demurely. 

swampy swampy swamp

swamp swamp swamp

take us back to that primordial haunt

a bouquet of blue carnations for you to flaunt

a raving, brazen, idiot savant

hawked gawked and chicken pocked

i set my alarm for the equinox

4:43 but it was still an awful surprise

a mountain of pills pooled between my thighs

with a smooth totem thumbed within my pocket

i finger fucked the electrical socket

the toddler in the front seat just glared at me and locked it

and i know i could survive, alone, on onions and gatorade

so when mercury saunters out of retrograde

and everything has been primped and prayed,

bludgeoned and braised

i'll remain pregnant with fury

hard candied and curried 

daddy said that to be worried

is a wasted emotion

so after the funeral we simply applied the lotion

and i swallowed my thoughts of bursting devotion

with rose in your quartz

bermuda in your shorts

and memories to abort

ill take you shopping at FAO schwarz

lying on the upside

hungover joyride

drooling on the cowhide

babys wounded flesh

swaddled in mesh

a bad boi in the creche

but thankfully throughout the chatter

it came to me on a golden platter

a filet protruding from the batter

that nothing matters

poodles in the clouds

clouds made of poodles

that caterpillar who tickled my thigh

and made a cocoon on your skirt

was that orange monarch
who got caught in the windshield wipers

and mended itself on my palm

to flutter back up into the cypress tree

i held my breath, fetal, on the cove

made of true crystal

thumbing a cactus

after i left you and

your belly of milk

your kiwi vines

your ink blots

for a pile of preciousness

pockets full 

of chipped jade

wild fennel

dried prickly pear

airbrushed puka shells

gessoed mushrooms

a moldy house

a stress rash

a sports bra

Man, I swear, I'd give the whole thing up for you.